Daddy God,

Sometimes I wonder why I am still doing what I'm doing when I feel so tired with it already. I'm tired of being the one so kiasu who wants to win everytime. But yet at the same time I don't wanna give in. I hate the feeling of losing. Probably that's part of me being a perfectionist. I really wanna adopt the don't-care attitude sometimes. Now, don't get me wrong...it doesn't mean i'm apathetic towards people when they are in need. Often the more I wanna care about something, it just hurts me deeper and deeper. Lord, why do I have to go through this? Is it because I'm the one who's problematic once more?

-Confused daughter of Yours-