argh!!!

I never seemed to get out of it, do I? Soon after I managed to recover from one, another one cropped up again. And the worst thing is I'm taking it all out on the people around me who cares the upmost for me. I know the Bible verse well enough: Rejoice in this day that the Lord hath made......but it seems it serves only as a head knowledge and it has not transformed and take its place in my heart. I'm angry with myself and I don't want to blame it on any hormonal change and all those nonsense. Afterall, I'm not reaching my menopause anytime soon yet, right? It's frustrating to see yourself get into a mess and trying to get the heck out of it. Nothing seems to help and I feel that it's not gonna end. I really hope that the sun will shine again. God please help me. I don't want to become abnormal. You've absolutely no idea what I'm ranting about, nor have I any.

As I type this blog, I'm listening to Patrick Leong's 'Through The Rain'. I suddenly feel so blessed and there's hope above. I will never fully comprehend what those who are suffering are experiencing, especially those who are suffering from physical pains and hurts. In a way, they are definitely affected emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Compared to what I'm facing now, my case is only peanuts. I don't know how to respond to all the unfortunate things which happened onto the people I know these few weeks. I suddenly realise that we human are so fragile and helpless. It's only by God's grace that we are living here on earth. So many times we try to be great and everything, but it all resolves to dust or nothing when we are hit with disasters, tragedies and calamities. So, how? I've to face every present day as a gift from God and live it to the fullest and appreciate the people around me. I love you! Yes, I mean you! You! You! You! I may not say it to you when I see you, but you know that, don't you? Well in case you don't know, now you know lor. haha....