Super bored-ness

I'm in college now having Economics lecture. It's so darn boring until I can even start to blog here. He is teaching us how to draw charts, histograms, blah blh blah...which I've already learnt last semester. I'm not trying to boast or anything here, but just lamenting that I'm learning it all over again. I hope the exam will be as easy as what I'm learning. I wish lah.

I'm craving for my fair share of shopping right now. Everyone's on holiday and going shopping now. Argh....WAIT FOR ME! My shopping list is getting longer and longer if I still don't get a chance to go shopping in the near future. My sandals just kaputted and I am in great need of one. So now I go to college in my flip-flops, which are comfortable on one hand, but on the other hand it looks shabby.(not sure how to spell it)

I've come to a point where I don't care anymore. Just so busy with assignments now and I just want it to be done as soon as possible. I've so much research to do and it seems that the more I read, the more I'm getting confused.

I'm so tired of fighting you. You know, it's like never ending. People who are reading this blog will not understand what i'm talking about and what I'm fighting . Don't ask me what it is. I can't really explain.

Screaming in pain.....

My muscles are screaming in pain in there. Even small little moves I make, eg. walking, bending, sitting on the toilet seat are enough to make me scream. The pain is so excruciating that I cannot tahan. All these pain could be attributed to my extraordinary sporty day yesterday. Well, can you imagine I actually woke up early to go jogging in the park? Then in the afternoon I proceed to my dance practice (by the way, it lasted 2 and a half hours). After that I had some indoor games in church. WAH........I really don't know how I really lasted. I just hope that the pain will be very much reduced by tomorrow.

It's proven that Sheena Wong :

(i) is a slow learner.

(ii) is a kia-su person.

(iii) is very much concerned about what others think about her

(iv) will go all out to meet the requirements of the world ( I know it's bad, as the bible says in Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world.....)

Yahoo! Super-awesomeness...

I know the title is not proper English. But I really feel a bit more liberated right now. The reason: I've passed up my accounting assignment! It's been a crazy week. So many things happened and I couldn't begin to describe the sequence of events. I've survived on less than 4 hours of sleep a day on average. Craziness as I've assignments dateline. I think it's all because of the group assignment that really took a lot out of me. I tried to be as patient as possible with my team members but somehow I think I've not learned how to work in a harmonious way with them. Some of them just don't reach my expectations. I know my expectations are high due to my perfectionist nature. But I was quite gracious at times to grant them leeway so that it'll be fair to them as well. And you know what I did? I just took a deep breath and offered to do 85% of the assignment. Honestly, I don't mind sacrificing my sleep and everything to ensure that the assignment is ok. I mean I really don't want to let go and regret later. I could be wrong in my assignment, but at least I know I've done my best.

Ok ok...so much about team work. Not gonna talk about that for some time now.

I feel so blessed as I got a phone call from my cousin in Sabah today. It's a pleasant surprise as she really called me up just to ensure whether I'm alright.. Thank you so much...You really made my day and you are so God-sent. Thanks for all the encouragements. I truly appreciate it.

God is good all the time...

I just want to shout out: God is good all the time. I hope I'm able to say this in all circumstances in life. Sometimes it's so hard to testify that He is indeed good ALL the time. It seems that when bad things happen, I tend to shun away from the One above. Forgive me, O Lord for sinning against You. Today the Lord has just did it again, as in doing a miracle. When I woke up in the morning, the first thing i did was praying to God that He'll hold the rain and grant us clear weather, so that the youths can play captain ball in the evening. Then the sky was overcast with dark clouds by 11 am. I was so worried and I said : Why la? When i need a sunny day, it'll rain. By 12.15 am, the heavy clouds still seem so stubborn that it refused to move and it really looks like it's gonna pour down like cats and dogs. And in my heart this song started resounding: LET IT RAIN...LET IT RAIN....OPEN THE FLOODGATES OF HEAVEN...LET IT RAIN. Then i began to pray in my heart that God will really grant us clear weather. So I kind of just put away those scary thoughts when I went for dance practice. When I came out of Summit, I witness the miracle. The sky was so clear and it's so sunny that I feel a lil' too hot. The youths had a fun time together snatching and passing the ball. It even went a bit rough when some of them pushed and squeezed one another just for the sake of winning. It shows we do have a competitive spirit. BBK youths, rock on!

Running out....

At the moment, I'm running out of:

-time

-tears

-cash

-patience

-love

...

.....

........the list goes on and on.......

It has been a pretty bad week so far. Things seem like crashing down on me and I desperately need a break. But it seems i'm not going to have one anytime soon. I've to press on and move on with life recognising the fact that life is indeed full of ups and downs. I know that everything happened for a purpose. God, please wipe away my tears and help me to redirect my focus in You. Yes, indeed it's because of You that i can face tomorrow and yes, it's because of You that i'm able to say that there is every reason for me to rejoice in the day that You've made. Lord, help me to get up again and move on. I know that You'll grant me the grace to carry me through this period of time. For I know all things are possible in You. You and You alone.

I want to thank you Jane for walking me through these stormy nights. Thank you for all your concern through the phone calls and sms. I truly appreciate it. You are indeed God sent. May you continue to grow in Him and pass on God's blessings to others. Keep up that pastoral heart of yours.

I've Got The Joy

Since I came back from the Penang trip, I've been having loads of problems with my stomach. I think I've eaten too much trash up there in the north. I can't load the pics yet as I still haven't figure out how to use my brother's camera. Argh.....so frustrating. Never mind, I shall be patient. It's been an eventful week that I've gone through. It includes a great deal of laughter, tears, anger, disappointment and even sweet moments as well. Let me just jot down some of the things I did. Hmmm....shopping, watching movies, sports, spending time with friends and of course my new found joy, ie. dancing. wakaka....I've been so in a dance mood after the practice in ACTS church. There's so much life and fun in dancing. It's a lot like performing a great piece of music. I'm still in touch with my artistic side though I've been so sick of my law and management accounting assignment. I've not even finished my assignment though I vowed to myself before the holidays to finish it by yesterday. It is all because of one word: procrastination. I can't wait for December when I can finally be done with all my exams and assignments and enjoy my holidays while getting myself busy again with the yearly rituals, such as X'mas and Watchnight preparation. Oh well, I can't wait for this week to be over too. At least I can submit my law assignment and I can concertrate on the other two. It's frustrating sometimes that you feel so helpless, can't change the circumstances around you and you are stucked with the consequences of bad choices. Tough tough tough....I try not to be so pessimistic yet, so I wanna share this beautiful song with you which always give me a reason to smile again...

I'VE GOT THE JOY
I'VE GOT THE PEACE OF MIND
I'VE GOT THE FAITH IN THE HOLY GHOST
WHICH FILLS ME EVERYDAY
I'VE GOT THE LIFE
I'VE GOT THE MELODY
I'VE GOT THE WORD
THE WORD OF GOD
THAT SETS ME FREE

argh!!!

I never seemed to get out of it, do I? Soon after I managed to recover from one, another one cropped up again. And the worst thing is I'm taking it all out on the people around me who cares the upmost for me. I know the Bible verse well enough: Rejoice in this day that the Lord hath made......but it seems it serves only as a head knowledge and it has not transformed and take its place in my heart. I'm angry with myself and I don't want to blame it on any hormonal change and all those nonsense. Afterall, I'm not reaching my menopause anytime soon yet, right? It's frustrating to see yourself get into a mess and trying to get the heck out of it. Nothing seems to help and I feel that it's not gonna end. I really hope that the sun will shine again. God please help me. I don't want to become abnormal. You've absolutely no idea what I'm ranting about, nor have I any.

As I type this blog, I'm listening to Patrick Leong's 'Through The Rain'. I suddenly feel so blessed and there's hope above. I will never fully comprehend what those who are suffering are experiencing, especially those who are suffering from physical pains and hurts. In a way, they are definitely affected emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Compared to what I'm facing now, my case is only peanuts. I don't know how to respond to all the unfortunate things which happened onto the people I know these few weeks. I suddenly realise that we human are so fragile and helpless. It's only by God's grace that we are living here on earth. So many times we try to be great and everything, but it all resolves to dust or nothing when we are hit with disasters, tragedies and calamities. So, how? I've to face every present day as a gift from God and live it to the fullest and appreciate the people around me. I love you! Yes, I mean you! You! You! You! I may not say it to you when I see you, but you know that, don't you? Well in case you don't know, now you know lor. haha....