On reflections and others

The year 2007 just flew past me without me realising.The happenings and events that were assumed and thought to be an agony in the beginning of 2007 had already TOOK PLACE! Can't imagine the grace of God which brought me through all those moments which seem to last forever. I wasn't quite looking forward to 2007 actually due to the many commitments which I forsee myself undertaking. Truly it's only by God's grace that I was able to accomplish all that I set out to do.

Firstly, the big thing was my violin exams. I didn't tell anyone about this, but I actually whispered to myself before the exam that I'm going full time in music if I pass it with distinction. Haha..couldn't believe it when it actually came true. And yep..I'm in music now. The whole process of exam wasn't easy. Indeed now that I look back, I'm amazed by how I managed to juggle my time between music practice and college studies. The very fact that my college exam was just one week before my violin exam really scared me. Not to mention that my cousin's wedding was also on the same week of my exams. Well, the preparations which went into it was horrendous as I was the bridesmaid. Again..yeah again..I was the bridesmaid again. Some people said a girl can't be bridesmaid for more than 3 times lest she wouldn't be able to get married. Yeah..I'm superstitious to a certain extent. Sigh...

Secondly, the internship! Yeah..it was a big thing for me as it was something I really needed to go through to decide for my career. God really helped me and blessed me with the opportunity to work with one of the finest firm in the world. He enabled me to broaden my horizons and opened my eyes to have a glimpse of what it's like in the seemingly "perfect" working environment. Now I know what's best in the eyes of the world may not be so after you've been in it. However, really thank God for holding my hand through the internship. It was really tough having to miss youth meetings/worship practice on Saturdays due to teaching. It's over...

Thirdly, having to decide about my career. The story is too long to be written here. Anyway..it's been decided and I pray to God that there'll be no turning back..no turning back..no matter how attractive the pay may be...I will hold on to my first love. I will..

O MY!

The most awful state one has to face is: facing a situation and so helpless and watching yourself drowning to death. That was what happened yesterday in the exam hall. I knew I've studied that question. Almost EXACTLY THE SAME WITH TUTORIAL! Damn it! I thought I knew what to do...but when i started writing, I just didn't know which figures to include! Argh! I started to panic. Nvm..then I continued on that question despite the uncertainty when coming to that part. After coming to terms that I REALLY FORGOT HOW TO DO, HOW SILLY I AM, I decided to canceled out that question and moved on to others which I wasn't too sure. And DENG! the exact same thing happened again! Again! And I could feel my head literally spinning and hands shivering already as I couldn't see the words on the paper properly. Sigh.. And walking out of the exam hall, I started to break down. My eyes were welled up in tears and got even worse when one friend called up to comfort me. The more my friend tried to comfort me, the more I cried.

I just have to keep on hoping and praying that everything will turn out well in Feb. Pls God....

True colours

You are able to see a person's true colours when the tough gets going and you need their help the most. Usually they are the people whom you thought were the closest people in your life. But sadly, when I appeared to be slightly inconvenient to them, they just wished they could disappear from your presence, not having to attend to your needs. That's exactly how they reacted. Oh well...life's unfair and this statement is sinking in deeper and deeper each and everyday. I agree this is something we are not made to acknowledge in school and academic life. Sigh...Sheena..this is the real world.

And hence, my mood is sorta depressed today. Gone through so many things and I'm so tired and sick of it. And worst thing is i've to study for my upcoming exam. God help me...So not the time to be emo..

However, on a more joyful note, it's really great to know that someone(besides God) really cherish and cares for you. A person who goes to great length to please you and accepts the way just as you are. Even if that person is left with 1 dollar in the pocket, it'll be reserved for you. Hmm...that really brightened my day.

Ok ok..I shall stop ranting now lest I make you depress reading about realities of life. Getting back to books...

No fear at all?!?

Finally a good pic of three of us...

Spot the X'mas tree behind? so Christmas-y mood.Note our colour coordination..

Absolutely bored from lectures

Huh? less than two weeks to exams and we're still so crazy? No fear and no pressure of exams?!? Is it a good sign or not? Haha..siau in camwhoring today, since it's like our 2nd last day of lectures in college.

Posers...

Posers we are...dekat fitting room pun nak ambil gambar...sigh..

Guess what they were trying to do to me...forcing me to show my #####haha..

Thank you

Thank you girls...You gals really make me smile and laugh...My mundane college life is brightened up by you. Each of you possess unique personalities which makes me feel in awe with God's creation. College life was never usual because of you guys. And I'm just beginning to feel the impact now that we only have less than a week together. It seems like our friendships have just started to blossom and yet we've to part ways. Some of you getting married and having kids (makes me feel old), some of you getting all ready for the working life, and some of you are as clueless to life just like me. Sigh...