I'm BACK!

I'm back! You know....BACK? haha...I know I've been MIA for some time now. I really didn't feel like blogging for the past few weeks. Not lazy, but just didn't want to. Perhaps i need some motivation? sigh....

Nothing much happened these past few weeks...Feel like my life is going on a roller coaster ride. Feel so emo and temperamental this few weeks. As college has started, it took me a while before I could fully adapt to the study life, which means sleeping late and getting up early. There are a lot of things calling for me right now as I type my blog. My law books, econs and management accounting(which is so boring!). Ish!I don't quite like management accounting, as it is so boring and it goes on and on and on talking about cost, cost, cost......

Went for violin class today and it really strucked me that I've been a lazy person refusing to practise. I've to face the reality of failing my exams if I still won't buck up and start practising. It was pretty emo in class as I was just thinking and pondering upon what all these things will end up eventually. I mean, I really don't know where this practice and exams will take me and I feel like throwing in the towel as I just don't see an end to it! It's just a drag and I'm just not motivated to practise at all. All the bad comments coming out from my teacher's mouth were also not elevating the whole condition. I have came to realised that I've chosen the wrong instrument and now I really miss my piano lessons and it hurts me deeply when I can't play the difficult pieces. It's like everyone knows you've a diploma in piano, but when you're asked to play, it just sound so terrible. Argh....these are the things that are causing much stress to me and my fluctuating emo curve.

Sigh....Why Why Why?

Today is my first day in college for my 2nd semester. And I ask God: why why why? Why must it be today? It didn't happen by coincidence, right? I'm sure You, my God who is almighty and in control of all things planned it. For those of you who are scratching your heads, wondering what I am lamenting, I'm actually talking about this morning's nice and cold weather, which was perfectly conducive to sleep in. It was around 5 am in the morning and I suddenly heard the strong breeze which caused the trees in my garden to sway....I know I couldn't be wrong, and true enough, it started to rain. Deep down in my heart, I was actually wanting to curse and everything, but then I was reminded once again to be thankful to God for everything that He has created. sigh...So I could not sleep after that, as I was so worried that it's gonna rain like cats and dogs. That means I can't enjoy free parking outside the college and I'll have to fork out > than RM3 just for that 2 hours' class. So I started praying and asking God to stop the rain as soon as possible. And guess what, God really did heard my prayer. The rain stopped by the time I was getting ready for college. Thank God for being so gracious to me!

College was usual, except for the Econs Department's management, which never improve its service despite rounds of performance survey tests done by the students. Apparently there was some confusion and miscommunication between the lecturers and management. Around 25 of us were waiting for the lecturer in another class when in actual fact the rest of the students were already having class in another venue. It was really puzzling how the management could end up doing something like this. Oh well....it's gonna be difficult this semester as I'm having Business Law, which is hard to score. Dummie like me never really know how to argue...

I did a jealousy test yesterday. Pretty cool, but my results are pretty depressing. The results are as below:

You are 50.79% jealous!For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
221144 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that :
•You exhibit many jealous traits.
•You are prone to over-react.
•Although your jealousy shouldn't prove to be a real problem, you should work on controlling it more.
•Things aren't often as bad as you think.

Looks like the test results ain't very positive, huh.... Gotta work on it...

Can I Turn Back Time?

Can I turn back time? Sigh....holidays have just ended and I'm feeling so depressed and blue. Let me recap what I've done during these two weeks. Hmm.....*thinking really hard*, *still thinking*...

Err...I think i seriously didn't do much during these holidays. Yes, I slept a lot. And I know I'm gonna miss my bed and pillow and comforter during those rainy afternoons..You know what I mean? And not forgetting the wonderful cloudy morning which is often accompanied by rain and drizzles. *sob sob* no more sleeping in anymore. What's next, oh I think I went out for some concerts, had some nice yaking time during mamak, shopping and catching up with old friends. And of course last but not least, MSN-ing. I wanna say thank you to all my MSN pals who have been so nice and sweet for staying up late to chat with me. You guys rock!

Today is a typical Sunday again. With the exception of VCD watching in the afternoon. hehe...

Oh....a lot of people commented on my dressing this morning. At first it was quite nice getting all the undeserved attention and compliments. But then later one of my church friend said something which really get me thinking and thinking....she said something like: you look very virgin today..I was a bit dumbfounded when I heard that statement. Unfortunately later I didn't get to talk much about that with her. You mean all this while I didn't look like a virgin or what? My dressing is normally atrocious, boyish, wild or what? Or worst case scenario, dressing like an Ah-Sam. *LOL* But then later I thought to myself, probably what she was trying to say is: I look very feminine today..Oh well, I hope I did not interpret it the wrong way....Still quite happy with my dressing today. Both the top and the skirt are bought from Australia two years ago when I was there visiting my brother. Hehe...

I'm so stressed out!!!

I'm so stressed out! Ish....Not looking forward to Monday as 2nd semester is starting and that marks the end of my holidays! And that also signifies the start of headaches and loads of stress. I'm gonna have group assignments and that's the thing I detest the most! Blame it on my perfectionist nature that always seek for perfection and usually means I end up doing most of the things in a group work. And that's so frustrating you know....I mean as much as I want to choose to be in a "good" group ...I feel that I'm so selfish and have no team spirit at all! And that's precisely what the world's employers are seeking for! How sad... Yea..you who are reading this will figure out that I like to work on my own. I mean I enjoy group work if my group members are also as competitive and kia-su as me!

Oh well....I shan't dwell on this issue anymore. I've to learn how to work along with others and be more humble. For the Bible says in Ephesians 4:2,Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. This shall be my prayer for goodness knows..how long...

And on top of that, I'm utterly broke again....I've not received my salary for the month of August and I really hope that I'll get it this Tuesday.Argh!

God please bless me....

Retail Therapy is good for me.....

Hehe.....Retail therapy is good for me....Holidays ain't complete without shopping! Yeah...Went out with a friend today and supposedly going for a warehouse sale. But it was quite disappointing, really. So we proceeded to a boutique nearby. And we saw some really nice clothes. Our eyes suddenly opened wide and our spirits were lifted up from the drousy mood due to the hot sun. We were busy trying clothes and stuffs...really fun...it was a long time since i stepped into a fitting room. The feeling of looking at yourself in front of a mirror in a fitting room was really exciting. Then finally due to some financial reasons, I've to apply the opportunity cost principle. Sigh.....So I only choosed one of the clothings out of three. oh well..at least i got something. Still quite happy and satisfied with my new buys.